single awareness day

Whew! Tomorrow's gonna be valentines day na! Waaah! And I do not have a date na naman! Wahahah! But, thinking about it, who cares anyway? Do you really need to be on a date during Feb 14? I think that's so stereotyped already! Lols. I'm not bitter! I'm just really not into dates during valentines day, even if I was in a relationship cuz I feel that it's so baduy to go with the flow. Honestly, I was thinking if I'm happy being single. Yeah, for some, this could be a really big deal. Thinking deeper into it, being single also has many advantages, though of course, there are still disadvantages to it. But I want to focus on the positive side as looking on the dark side would only be so pathetic. This morning, I received an early valentine gift from a co-teacher. Natuwa naman ako, somebody gave me a rose. Our teamleader also gave us Krispy Kreme donuts. I am actually planning to give away chocolates on Valentines day to everyone in my team. I even wanted to bake a cookie so that my gift would be personalized, pero wala na ko time eh! Huhu. Anyway, as I was analyzing events in my life, I realized that I have so much to be thankful for. Yes, there are so many heartbreaks that I have experienced, but that same pain also gave me the strength to make my life better. We cannot always have everything we want, but God always gives us the freedom to make choices. Thinking about the situation I am in now makes me realize that God had me go through that hurtful process to make me learn, and to make me realize what it feels to be abandoned. And yeah, being in a relationship may be nice, BUT being single gives me more freedom. You might think I am sour-graping. I cannot blame you for thinking that way since I am not sure of what I feel either. Heheh. But right now, I honestly feel kinda tired already of ranting about what happened in the past. I am so tired of being pathetic. I am making a decision now to move forward, and to leave everything behind. It's nice to look back sometimes, but I think that wouldn't help me now as the wound is still fresh. I feel happy because I choose to. And I think I don't need a man to make me happy. I would wait for that perfect time to come when God will give me the man of my dreams, or the man he has prepared for me. I know that God just saved me from being deeply hurt that's why he took that thing or person away while I'm not so into him that deep yet (though that time, I felt that I already was). But seriously speaking, right now, all I want to do is have fun and enjoy my time being single. It's nice to think that there's a rainbow always after the rain, and I am savouring every piece of fun in it. So to all the single ladies out there, Happy Single Awareness Day! Now put yer hands up!! :D